No Refunds On A One Way Ticket

Set aside the airbrushed faces, turn off the tube, listen to the silence.. Do you hear that? It's your thoughts. They're always there.. that's you. What you're thinking is what makes you unique. Our thoughts separate us from one another. I feel every day I'm running with the herd just to keep up with life. Then I stop and realize it's really pulling my life away. We're such individuals and it's very, very easy to lose that with the every day struggles we face. I think we're all giving up.

It's hard to grasp exactly what I want to say or what I'm getting at. I can feel it though, I feel something.. it's a scary feeling. We're losing ourselves in so many ways. We wake up every day and get so caught up with 'the herd', our every day routine that we're losing who we really are.

As a child we dreamt so big because we knew nothing of what the world offers. It was as if someone opened the doors to a never ending candy shop and said .. 'pick whatever you like, what's your favorite candy?'. So there we sat saying, I like this.. I love that.. no no that's what I want (metaphorically speaking, what we want to be in life). Not once did anyone say the shop eventually closes and whatever items sit on the top shelf unfortunately, I can't help you reach.

So we go through life not necessarily worrying or preparing us for what's to come. Elementary school, easy, fun, non-stressful years of valentine cards, yummy projects, vocab consisting of 5 letter words, leaf piles, recess, milk money in an envelope.. now it's paychecks which we're lucky enough if we can afford milk! Middle School, what torture! Everyone is trying to grab on to anyone to be their friend and just fit in with the ones that everyone seems to love. Of course those end up being the ones people dispise later on in life. They're trying to prepare you for High School and what the assignments will be like. I'm glad I learned the proper technique of writing a 'works cited' page. Then there is High School, the years people seem to have hated but look back on wishing they could live over. I loved High School, every minute of it. Going from seeing everyone I cared about every day to barely having time to meet up for dinner/drinks. It's a shame what time does to us.

Getting back on topic, which I'm not quite sure the appropriate topic here.. those are the years that truly made us who we are. Those are the years we made mistakes in which helped us be mature and strong individuals. What happened?

We are just following the herd. I can't get enough of that expression. It's this fast force which seems difficult to break away from. I just don't want so much time to pass bye and we're 60 before we realize what's happened. If only we could all be millionaires and enjoy all the beauty in the world. Isn't this why everything has been created? Trees, waterfalls, the sun, exotic beaches, amazing mountains, never ending rivers. Then how come life has lead us to be working all the time, struggling, stressing, sucking the passion of life out of us?

Wish I had answers to all of my questions, but then again I wouldn't have asked them. Just venting and I thank you for listening.

I love you all very much!

Calling the Energizer Bunny

Bonsoir mi amigos! Haha.. a little spanish with a french twist there, what a beautiful combination.

So let me ask everyone where does your energy come from? What makes up your energy? How does your body not want to lay down after standing for 10 seconds? I've been researching for so long. It's amazing how I went from having insomnia for 3 yrs in High School and now constantly craving.. needing sleep. Perhaps it's catching up with me, maybe I'm making up for old times haha.

I neglect to take vitamins.. stopped exercising.. what's healthy food?.. my bed is becoming my best friend.. I slouch.. forget about picking up the pen I dropped.. SHAME ON ME!

I do know the answers or should I say underlining reasons for my consistent and everyday growing laziness.

Slouching plays such a huge part I really believe. Work with me here.. sit up straight for 10 seconds. Don't you feel so much more awake? It might be because your mind is trying to 'think' and control your back to hold your head up straight. Then slowly without knowing it your body just falls back into stinky, slouch mode! I think I might need to get a back brace, similar to Forrest Gump's leg braces. It worked for him!

Exercising.. oh god I could go on and on. 2 winters ago my lovely, beautiful cousin and I decided to join a gym. Sidenote: they are still taking payments out of my account because I haven't found the time to go down and cancel my membership. They are making money off someone who hasn't set foot in their gym in over a year. How insane is that? SHAME ON ME!> We went as much as we could but then slowly we lost the motivation. There are so many things I can do in my own home, but why is it so hard to start and when I do.. how come I give up? I think we all need to be beaten with a whip just enough so we get a schedule together and stick to it. Maybe I can build a robotic machine that can slap my butt in gear. I'll work on it and let you know once it's been patented.

Vitamins, a.k.a. enormous horse pills. I can't swallow those bad boys! I have enough trouble with motrin pills in which someone needs to be close bye so I can grab their hand during the process. Thank you to Charlie, Kelly, my parents for always giving me their hand when those times approached, lol. Chewables I had tried on many occasions, but I didn't get much of an affect. They are very important and I know they do play a very important role with the body growing and being energized. I just can't swallow them! For the love of God please make multivitamins as small as tic-tac.

Google->'How to increase your energy'-> I'm feeling lucky! Throughout my continuing research of this topic I've come across many intriguing suggestions. One that sticks in my mind is spend one day of the month in complete silence. Is this possible? I know when we're sick it's easy to do that by trapping yourself in the room all day. Do you think reading is allowed? I would really love to do this and I'm going to plan my schedule out so this can happen. I feel this would be a great idea for everyone. :)

I hope you all have had one fabulous weekend! I love you all very much -

Catch you on the flipside
Kate