Quite some time ago I started writing a book. Every so often I'll jump into that Microsoft Word file and type away. Other days I'll open it and beat myself up for not keeping at it. I'm pretty sure it's going to be a project that will take almost a lifetime to complete. It's not that I don't have the time, because I do. No need to watch as much TV as I do or movies. There's plenty of 'cutbacks' that seem to consume my life that I can be rid of.
I think the reason it will take so long is because of the actual story.. what I am trying to tell. I've been working on my life and keeping track of changes, planning for change, creating a healthy life, balancing my life, it goes on.. Of course that takes a lifetime because things are constantly moving in different directions. My focuses go from one thing to another in the blink of an eye. Some weeks are so bad that I feel like giving up and then others are amazing and I wouldn't want to finish a book or even write on a bad week. I rather talk about it after the fact and what I did to get through it. So you can see my mind is pretty packed when it comes to my book and I'm not emotionally 'together' to even work in it on a day to day basis.
Perhaps, that's why I've been slacking a bit with my blog? Could be. Either way I know one thing I will accomplish something great in my life. Whether it's a book or something else. I refuse to die and where ever I go after looking back reviewing my life knowing I did jack.. well you know the rest. That's honestly a fear of mine and I just have to stay strong and positive knowing I, Katie will do something so amazing in my life that will let me rest in peace some day feeling great that everything was truly worth it.
I had to get this all off my chest. Love you all!
KT
